As You Kneel to Pray

I gaze into your eyes
You look away
I kiss between your thighs
You kneel and pray

I scream within my heart
You pretend not to hear
Opening night you had the lead part
But you weren't there

In my times of need
I look to you
Dreaming of planting my seed
Within you

But you go on accumulating
The water that I drink
Turning into an assassin
As my boat begins to sink

I'm freezing alone
And need you close
My marrow frosty in the bone
What are you a ghost

Is that a Christian way
Praying on your knees
Looking the other way
As I'm filling with disease

You're holy indeed
Maybe you’re a nun
In my time of need
You're aiming at me with a gun

While you hold the door
You see
That they’re in my store
Robbing me

Oh you're a fine example
Of humanity and hope
Your actions are ample
To hang the pope

Get off of your knees
God dam you to death
The passing breeze
Fears your breath

Still as the tears flow
You offer only resentment
You hideous crow
Leaving acrid scent

I'll kill you
That's what's right
Mutilate you
Stab you in the night

You'll wait and know
Suffer gnash and dread
But as I lift the window
Your room lacks your bed

You're nothing but a bitch
Always slipping away
You give life to the word witch
And the calendar lack your birthday

I'll murder you
In the light of day
Strangle the life out of you
While the children play

Now I have you RIP
Squeezing your neck to a string
You're finally within my grip
But in my grasp I have nothing

I gaze into my hands
As the crowds stare
In the distance arrive marching bands
But they're really not there

I look to the sky
I was all wrong
Your expression my reply
You're already gone.

Smiling you're crying down
Chanting invocation
Burnt my house to the ground
Without reservation

Why are you praying
Down on your knees
Is it my death you're saying
Then finish me please

My unanswered calls
Like darts thrown in the sky
Not knowing where one falls
Becoming my fulfilled lie

As my boat filled with water
That life giving substance

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Alone with My Thoughts

I am alone with my thoughts. My thoughts are as well prisoners of my dreams. They disappear within the walls of my mind and then strangely reappear as if they were never gone.

I am alone with my hopes which have become treacherous friends. They accompany me to the heights of children's prayers and into the seemingly bottomless pit of sadness where the only solace that one can find is physical pain.

I am alone with my God, the Force of life who has given me gifts in an abundance and I often feel that I will drown in them as a child would drown at the bottom of an empty well that suddenly fills from above.

I am alone with my guilt. If I live a million years and do good deeds from the moment I rise until the moment I rest I will never be able to deserve 1pc of the countless gifts that flow to me as the sea flows to the shore, never ending, always present..

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Always in Frankfurt

I don't know the best way to transmit my feelings to you. I don't speak German. You speak some English, you speak some Italian. Yet I feel that I know you better than I know most and I speak no German and you speak some English and you speak some Italian. My eyes dance with yours a solo where we are unconscious of all around and I speak no German. You speak some English, you speak some Italian. My hand touches yours as it has a thousand years ago and I speak no German. You speak some English. You speak some Italian. My lips openly kiss your cheek as it can only be kissed by me and I speak no German and you speak some English and you speak some Italian. We'll always be together. And I speak no German and you speak some English and you speak some Italian...
Don't stop to think what could be. What is, is. Trust yourself to me. Trust yourself. I will always love you.

Ich bin in einer buchhandlung. Ich denke an dich. Ich moechte dein lachen in eine flasche packen und sie austrinken wenn ich traurig bin. Ich moechte dein laecheln in eine flasche packen und es trinken wenn ich ermutigung brauche. Ich moechte deine zaertlichen beruehrungen speichern und sie nutzen wenn ich durch tiefe wasser gehe. Du sagtest ich sollte schreiben wenn andere sagten ich sollte gold suchen.sind wir mutig genug verletzungen zu riskieren in freundschaft und liebe? Oder sind wir nicht mutig wenn wir es nicht tun?

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And You Smile

If you've never been on a stage
Then it's not fair for you to decide
You've nothing but mouth to engage
You never even tried.

And make me wait to feel
What you can't comprehend
Singing for a meal
Not understanding that it will all end

And you smile
That's not kind
And you laugh
But I don't mind

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Bartender

How much pain killer can you fit in a glass?
Will it blur my senses so I don't feel anymore?
Will it help me throw my disillusions to the trash?
If the pain eases will I be through the door?

These are questions miss barmaid that I have to know.
And I know that I may not seem much to you
But I was also young some time ago
Let me share with you a story sadly true

These eyes have seen joy and rain
Eaten sunshine and pain
In the end I wasn't wise enough to hide
And I ended on the losing side.

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Better Off Gone

Better off gone
Throw her crud on the lawn
To start the gladness
Sweet sadness

You better get wise
Cause she's got sugar in her lies.
If you play her, lots of luck
She'll be gone with your last buck

She's never been wrong
Her whole night long
Never forgets an offense
Mixing lace with evidence

Gentle as the mange
She'll never change
Selfish as can be
Her wants your reality

What rationality is behind
When bitterness is all you find
Little chance for escape
The potion from her black cape

She plays hard ball
From the pit in her all
Will slice you to bits
With more hate than wits

And I'm tired from the war
Can't take anymore
Can't wait to lose the game
Cause it's all over just the same

A limitless source of animosity
To strong to let me be
A wound stingy cursed
To quench her unquenchable thirst

You said I did you wrong
Now you are king kong
What'd you expect
Your emotions checked

You got a big heart
Thats ripped me apart
From under your boobs
Warm like a hundred ice cubes

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Blanket of Roses

And if one day the sun refuses to yield
And the moon angers and throws down his shield
And you and I on a blanket of roses
With the same dreams and hopes as Abraham and Moses

To run and live on the other side
Securing a future which others deny
And understanding for once and for all
That a rocks shine is a diamonds fall

And if the sun fights on through the night
Which is which wrong is right
Will day prevail into night
Or will night resign without fight

And we’ll sit on a carpet of thorns
An orchestra behind of string and horns
Bellowing out with no prevail
Shut in a book like an ancient tale

And will we at once come to know
That which was said far ago
That a soul is the piece that endures
Needs no money needs no cures

And if we’re sitting on a carpet of cloves
And the moon knocks the sun into the orange groves
And the ground turns red and with the oranges one
To celebrate the fall of the sun

And we sit by on a carpet of scorn
Hate seeping and love forlorn
To cry and gnash our teeth without shame
At the scorn of truth with little satisfaction of blame

That destiny can take us in his grip
And open our lives and take a sip
Of emotions that flow without end
That crawl and flow into one blend

So weren’t we with the sun one
And our anger at the moon done
Cause in the end the sun and the moon make love
To laugh at our visions above

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Changing History

I don't care to know what makes you tick
Or what things that get you sick
I don't care what you do
I just want to mount you

It's not my fault at all you see
Woman has changed history
She wants to become a dude
So it's not my fault that I'm rude

I see that it makes no sense
But we can't live in past tense
So I'll get used to the death of romance
If you just let me in your pants

I sit alone with my brother death
Imagining your sweet breath
And he smiles at me as if to say
I'm with you every day

So let me get a last taste
Of your sweaty clear paste
To come up and finish you
After all you live with him too

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Clear Obscurity

Obscurity has never been so clear
And distant mounts so near
Weakness has never known such might
And half is white and half is night

Knee deep in confusion he reaches
As a long near voice beseeches
To run as fast as he can to stand in place
Cannon balls passing without a trace

And the damage done is severe
So he'll live to see another 100 year
Because peace can stir you to fright
And half was white and half was night

Oh the vulgar silence
Of the missing 6th sense
Invites all to go away
And those who must can't stay

And the vendors with their papers
Filled with unwritten capers
Of glimpses of blind sight
And half was white and half was night

So we dance to the hush
Hoping others slow to see us rush
That goes on everyday
As black and white blend to gray

And we live outside in our homes
Peppering speech with unknown chromosomes
That we hope will buy a seat to the right
And half was white and half was night

Go on come in please
The door's locked with no keys
And the welcome is already past
Forever will never last

Create a new thought
Made of whispered memory sought
Never has the dark been so bright
And half is white and half is night

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Condemned to Work for Food

Maybe they're all right
Maybe I should quit
Who do I think I am
There's only to forget it

Condemned to work for food
To write no poem
Is this not a bit crude
I'll never see home

Laughing at others is easy
Those who try harder than you
Coloring someone as sleazy
Because instead of talking they do

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Confusion

And he looked up from the valley of tears. He looked up in confusion. Where were the tears falling from? What was the source of their being? He looked everywhere but within himself. He hid under the leaves of trees formed of indifference. He blocked himself with pieces of rotted bark formed of bitterness. He tried to crawl under rocks created by accumulated presumed sympathy. It was all futile. He died...
And from the valley fertile from years of tears a flower sprouted. It's petal broke the earth and the sun shined with joy, emerging after years of hiding behind the clouds of tears. The sun caressed the petals with golden sunshine. The wind rustled up warmth of the sun rays and warmed the flower at night with warm breezes. The flower grew and gave strength to all of the suppressed with his splendor. The flower grew, made fertile, by doses of experience. He grew in virility. He grew in wisdom. He became resilient. He kissed the wind a kiss that she carries with her still. He smiled at the sun which was overwhelmed by the generosity of his son the flower. The flower was left to always remain with his loving family. And he lived through them and they spread their healing and nurturing affects through him. They became one. He had never died.

Pg

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Costantina

What's held in store
The next decades of flight
Settling for less than more
From behind green eyes bright

Questions unanswered
Twisting in time
Falling ever falling
Without rhythm or rhyme

Wishes and thoughts
Become uncertain desire
Round go the rings
Filled with water and fire

Searching for the place
That won't be found on Rush street
Running in the race
With each situation you meet

Slow down and hurry
Go the thoughts in your head
Like flakes in a snow flurry
That follow you to bed

Time leads to reason
Steady and sure
Season after season
The trick to endure

Effort and energy
Meet you as you roam
Happiness and synergy
Will bring you home

---

Danielle

I looked in your eyes and as the tears welled up I recklessly laughed. You opened your heart as I would a window of a hot humid room to welcome a breeze. You coughed up your only rebuttal to my childish attack responding " at least I've been in love” you spurted, “though it only lasted 10 months". And I the weak and I the cowardly continued to antagonize a soldier who had been wounded in battle, a noble battle, possibly the only noble battle, the battle for love. And I who've never been to war and never done battle in the wars that begin with ideas of glory and truth, hope of freedom and unconditional dedication and loyalty leading to unconditional surrender. And you've seen the battlefield and stayed knowing the risk to yourself and I've seen the blood of the battlefield and I've fled, much as a child flees the sudden voice of a stranger.

But by the flash of your eyes and the gentleness of your smile I saw love. It's glance lasted an instant but it's affect will last forever. Perhaps it's the key to your immortality.

Many people dream of a pilgrimage to their Holy land. Most must settle to look at pictures consumed with wonder. I join them. But I’ll never forget the look in your eyes. The look serves me as a post card would, a post card from the Holy Land of love.

At least now I know what it looks like. I think.

Thanks

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Don’t Miss Me

Don't miss me
As there may be no tomorrow
You must live free
Knowing that it's time we borrow

People give so many reasons
Not to live
They're like the seasons
Always changing, so just learn to give

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Dragon

There's a dragon following me
Pursuing tirelessly
I can't seem to make him stop
He's hatched out of every raindrop

He takes on the scent of a Christmas wreath
And disguises the rows of his sharp teeth
He looks on, absence of anger and pain
I kick and punch all in vain

His stalk is relentless constant and sure
After every battle he seems to easily endure
Why can't he tire and go back home
Back to the shadows and leave me alone

Alas, there's no solution that I can see
I’ve got a dragon and he's following me
He's nourished for years on my inadequacies
He's as many as the leaves in the dark trees

He's present with each soft touch
Disguised in a kiss and I know this much
That I'll defeat him, he knows it too.
We all have a dragon and he's following you.

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Empty Spaces

Searching through my places
Trying to take control
Sorting empty spaces
Trapped within my soul

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Enter the World of Belief

entri il mondo di pensieri
sarai' in buon compania
lasciando a me i dispiaceri
e dolorosa nostalgia

You enter the world of belief
You’ll be in good company
Leaving me hopelessly without relief
With painful memory

volerai sempre piu su
tua menta ti assicura
e io solo qua giu
circondato da tua amore pura

You fly ever higher
Your mind assures this
Leaving me in vanquished desire
Remembering our moment of bliss

che cosa ti ha fatto andare
ormai un rapporto non piu credibile
non sapevi che altra fare
che essere disponibile

What made you leave me
Was it my unreliable love
For you it all seemed so easy
To do anything for me

sarai sempre la leonessa mia
proteggendo i cucioli dei mie idee
nascondevi vivere una vita poesia
fregando di quel che potevano dire

You’ll always be my lioness
Protecting my thoughts in their infancy
Standing against all without distress
Assuring me room to think free

e noi qua a vivere bugie
che tu non mangeraii piu
portando a noi malatie
i tuoi allievi qua giu

You left us here to eat the fabrication
That you refused to receive
Leading to our annihilation
Poison without reprieve

e io ho aperto il tuo cuore
guardato dalla tua sincerita'
gli altri a guardare dal fuore
nella loro insensibilita'

And I opened your heart
Which was guarded by your sincerity
Others knew not where to start
Watching from their insensitivity

a noi che abbiamo costruito
bellezza che ti fa pianti di gioia
ai sogni senza diritto
a questo mondo un po troia

And we who have built
Beauty that brings tears of happiness
Leaving others strangely without guilt
For their thoughts of filthiness

e mi hai lasciata
per stare insieme per eternita'
sei gia arrivata
che punisce la vanit'

And you’ve left me behind
To accompany eternity
A trip we’ll all find
Punishes vanity

perche' commandi da sotto
io che viaggiavo sopra di te
hai preso un bancarotto
a fa lo salire con i dei

You commanded from under
Me who traveled over you
Or so I thought in my blunder
Scattered with my sacred and untrue

e chi non puo capire
e chi non puo
c'e niente da dire

And he who cannot understand
And he who cannot
There’s nothing to say.

You slept in my arms
A flower yet to grow
Held from life’s harms
Twenty four hours ago

And I shined as the sun
In the dark of your room
And you held the gun
Unloaded I assume

Suddenly one by one
You shot off the petals
Smiling in good fun
From behind your religious metals

And as I looked at your face
Sometime around four
There wasn’t a trace
Of the shooting anymore

Instead a smile that tickled my all
Was upon your lips
Not one bullet hole on the wall
No gun on your hips

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Everything Gentle and soft

I’m everything gentle and soft
Laced together by antique thoughts
A target in a world of shooters
A teacher among tutors

I’m everything near and warm
Sentiment in a man's form
A real sitting duck
Hunter's luck

Betrayed by smiling eyes
Promising free skies
An open book
In the land of forbidden look

Holding warm flesh unsure
If it's poison or a cure
Touching your hips
Kissing your lips

And forever is for a fool
You'll be my school
Or I'll be your high teacher
And you my evangelic preacher

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For Sale

Vendere, vendere perche non mi fido piu. Vendere vendere voglio vendermi l'ultimo colpo sei stato tu. (inizia uno che scende da fruit stand con il rumore nel mercato puoi cant e camina fuori la folla cantando) Che altro posso fare? Che non fido di nessuno. E proprio tu che credevi nelle flglie d'autunno. Quelli paroli finte. Come quell'rosetto che hai comprato che non dovevi toglesi quando dai un baccio. Forse abbiamo parlato del tutto. Forse rimane poco scoperto. Lo stesso sto in lutto. Per quello sguardo incerto. Che facciamo quando scoppriamo che tutto e niente. Come la fine di un bad film. E allora mi vendo, mi vendo e divento come te. (Puoi lui sparisce di nuovo nella folla. Durante, donne brutte e trucate passano)

For sale! For sale I’m selling myself away from you
I’m selling myself because I trust no more
There’s little else to do
So I’m selling the store

What else can one do
Who trusts no more
I thought it was finally you
To close winter’s door

And your words so untrue
Like lipstick tracks on my face
Caressing like morning dew
Reality’s disgrace

We spoke of everything
There was*

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Four Hours in Paradise

Quattro Ore in Paradiso
Four Hours in Paradise

Sembra che oggi si puo comprare tutto
Sopra ogni cosa, c'e un prezzo fisso
Vado controllare sul internet
Quanto vogliono per 4 ore in paradiso

Today it seems that anything you’re willing to pay for you can get
There’s nothing left without a price
I’m going to check on Internet
How much for four hours in paradise

sono convinto che qualcuno mouia
mentre un altro e'ucciso
senza capire gran che della vita
e nemeno 4 ore in paradiso

I’m convinced that many pass strife
Others put on ice
Without learning anything about life
Or even four hours in paradise

Conosco un uomo, quanti soldi ha fatto.
nelle cose sue e furbo e preciso
ma non puo capire mai
4 ore in paradiso

I know someone who accumulated a lot of cash and land
In all of his affairs he was sly and precise
But the poor fellow could never understand
Four hours in paradise

per me la vita e' cambiata
io non penso altro che il tuo sorriso
e la mia fortuna
di trovare 4 ore in paradiso.

For me my life has changed
I thing of little but your entice
My life’s been rearranged
Since I found four hours in paradise

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Frankfurt Afternoon

I'm sitting in a book store in Frankfurt. I'm thinking of you. I want to carry you with me always. I'd like to bottle your laugh and pour it out when I need a shot of merriness. I'd like to bottle your smile and pour it out when I need a bit of encouragement. I'd like to bottle your warm touches and pour them out when I need to navigate troubled seas. You told me that I must write when all others are pushing me to abandon my love for the pursuit of gold.

Are we foolish to flirt with lasting friendship or love? Or are we foolish enough not to and let time roll over us as it has our present past

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Frankfurt Nights

You who’ve loved me for centuries
In the wisp of a Frankfurt night
Fighting violent seas
Daring the anger of the north wind without fright

Finally the arrival of caress
Waiting patiently in a profound tear
Sewing laces on a pink dress
Panicking to never finish it in despair

And time has melted into your eyes
That shamelessly caress my heart
Anguished nights filled with cries
Of a love final from the start

And now I’ve found you
In the wisp of a September breeze
That passes and sheds light on you
From the shadows of Frankfurt trees

And fear has run for cover
Vanishing along with his fright
Taking risk as its lover
On a September Frankfurt night

And how I love you
Centuries have taught
Not to pursue you
Two bodies, one thought

And my wildest fantasy
Is the one I live tonight
Flowing into my heart ecstasy
On this September Frankfurt night

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Francesca

Francesca la vita mia
Francesca la vita mia

I’ll wait another 40 years
I’ll do it without fears
I don‘t know how I survived
And now as before I’m left deprived

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Frankfurt Twilight’s

Reflections in blonde highlights
Sitting at a Frankfurt bar
Clear blue twilight’s
Wishing on a falling star

Seeking freedom
That hurts no one
Refusing a life of boredom
In a search for the sun

Eyes that speak clearly
From the heart of a lion
Smiling sincerely
Without trying

An open book
In a world of walls
Tell life in a look
As free spirit calls

Beckoning to you
To live a life of substance
Pleading to you
To put up no resistance

The rules and regulations
That try to trap the very soul
At each of destiny's stations
Attempt to block the goal

They will succumb to thee
As if without a choice
Set you free
At the sound of an angel's voice

And the voice is you
Calling from deep inside
To always be courageous and true
While others wait to be tied

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Free

The power of free in your soul
Brings looks of hate and blue
A sense of constant lack of control
That hold and release you

---

And he looked on in confusion as they passed flowers to busy to notice their fragrance or color, accumulating things that they could not take on their final mystic passage. He watched his electronic inventions created to enslave him to create things, things that he mostly created for others.
And the flowers laughed heartily with him as they were trampled, ignored and left to return to their end only to find their beginning. His confusion was so that he thought a lifetime that past in an instant at men and women who dedicated their lives not to others not to themselves, but in pursuing things for themselves that couldn't be transported in the hole of the mystic ship. He watched them in confusion as they spent a life time spending their time and possibility of happiness for others to fill the cargo area of their mystic airplane with the things that could never be transported. Then after a lifetime of filling the cars of the mystic train with boxes and crates with other’s names. He was finally rewarded with a watch. He cried to receive the watch. He put it in a place of honor because it represented his life, and his life was spent. And it was the only object that could remain as he placed his foot on the mystic threshold.
And he watched in confusion his children took his watch and bartered it. He looked on in confusion at how the children held the watch high in the sky to be closer to the heavens when offering it for sale. Instead when they would make self evaluations they would take the watch and smash it under their chained feet, gnashing their teeth as if this behavior would get them a preferred seat on the mystic ride. And he laughed until he cried as he looked on in confusion as they were connecting their chains to their children. The children looked on anxiously to have the chains of their references on the trip that would take them to the mystic ends. Their father's father had put chains on their fathers. But the chains were tradition and the chains were hope. Instead the father’s watched as his siblings were chaining Gameboys and bank accounts and automobiles to the very soul of their children’s innocence. The children were tagged with a chip, for their own well being of course and given a prophylactic that they could put on to the people entering their all so as to limit the damage to their organs while their references in life sold their innocence to the men using them to accumulate wealth chips never to be taken on the mystic eternity.

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He Looked Too

He looked all around him in confusion seeing that they had built their homes on sandy beaches, spending all of their lives accumulating things that would be left off the mystic journey.
And he listened to them talk. He was confused to hear that the things that they cared most about were the things that they paid least attention to. They spoke of love of neighbor and loved him when convenient. They spoke of giving and gave to receive. They spoke of humanity and were humane when it protected their interest. They spoke of not using violence yet used it as their most dependable instrument.
He saw that they were afraid of affection. It was as if it would cost them some accumulation of their chips, that would be valueless to them on the mystic voyage. They sell no coca cola on the mystic ship. He laughed a hardy laugh at their arrogance sliding from the shining crested castle walls that they had built. He laughed at their titles. He laughed at their organizations. He watched monarchies which judged using the values of a man. He watched democracies judge valuing the goods sold to them by the government's capitalistic heart more than it’s citizens.
He saw that they perceived themselves as good and this was another synthetic blanket sold to them by the people who supplied them their goods. He saw them organize, the order becoming chains around their necks and the necks of their children. He saw them invite comfort and convenience to their homes and their lives. He watched as the comfort and convenience entered as a guest and quickly became master. And he laughed a hardy laugh at these children. And the laughter was silenced by the stream of tears flowing down his cheeks. sHe noticed the wrinkles on the children's faces despite the creams and the surgery. And as he watched in tantalizing agony he saw that the young children possessed the wisdom of innocence and that the old children who had aged drinking lying herbs had never matured. Worse, they had sold their innocence and had not taken abreast of the maturity which is the only compensation for it.

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I Know Who You Are

I know who you are
You laugh out loud and cry within
I’ve seen you at the bar
I know where you been

And you know too
What every one else fails to see
O yes girl I know you
You should get to know me

You’re the life of the party
Every scene hurts you more
Cause with every party
Hell tightens around you like a boa constrictor

With every bow you take
Praying forever
Napoleon watches each move you make
And it's your supply lines he’ll sever

Everyone wants to make a conquest
Instead of a gain
And you’d give up without contest
For some shelter from the rain

You ought to get to know me
I’m the quiet Joe at the end
If u really want to be happy
You’re better off with a friend

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I Regret Nothing

I regret nothing
That I can’t hold now
That became something
Heart on the prow

Hunting unknowing
Innocence released
reaping and sowing
Preparing for the feast

A feast forbidden
In the likes of time
Driven and ridden
Child/s nursery rhyme

That explode into thought
Spitting perfume and sweat
Pondering future onslaught
Of pains not felt yet

Screams in the abyss
Tear drops from nights eyes
That carry away the bliss
Leaving anguish and cries

The Spartan of love found me ready
Prime for the kill
Wind blowing confetti
On my window sill

He waits for me to tire
To finish his deed
A burst of fire
Following his swift steed

He's carrying mercy
In his leather sack
To throw down on me
And never look back

He knows that I’m slayed
And waiting for his sword
To go where my loves laid
In love’s lily ford.

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I Want to Die

I want to die
When I think that you’re gone
To cry
The whole night long

I want to die

I want to fly
Up into your love
Way up in your sky
Far far above

We’re apart
I’m alone
And my heart
Turns stone

You wanted to know
I laughed
You laid in sorrow
Your life halved

But then I fell
Deep into your eyes
Into soft fields of caramel
Created by pleasant surprise

I kept falling through
As I passed time by
Knew it’d have to be you
Till the day I die

---

I love you

Longed for Your Touch

I wrote this song for you
It's not really much
I know this is true
But I longed for your touch

Sometimes we all feel lonely
There just seems to be no one there
It's really a thought only
Cause there’s always someone here

Where do you go with your worries
Where do you go with your dreams
When in July you’re surrounded by snow flurries
And clouds block the moon beams

You think you’re all alone
You’re your own enemy
But just pick up the phone
And you’ll find me

Where can we store the pain
Is there a recycling bin somewhere
To bring out sunshine in rain
To exchange courage for fear

Where can I store the suffering
I’ve searched the house over
I’ll pack it up and bind it with a string
Scribble on it four leaf clover

How do you support the weight
Of your abandoned dreams
Visions of a soul mate
Buried by tears and screams

Quitting puts it all behind
Or so you try to believe
I’m sorry but soon you’ll find
All’s left to grieve

Anger's less scary than pain
Or so it appears
So you control heart with brain
To make it a few more years

A few more years is all you need
You’ll earn some bucks and by a Benz
You’ll give junk food to your soul for feed
And grow close to things not your friends

I Started to Write

You know I started to write
Five poems five times
Hoping that I might
Put my thoughts to rhymes

But after a few phrases
I’m blocked
In mazes
All locked

And you who
Should hold the key
Smile through
Yet won't help me

And I searched your pockets
As I touched your breast
Checking for lockets
Or a key or a chest

You smiled
As I came up clean
You knew all the while
The keys unseen

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In a Hundred Years

In a hundred years a life passes
Ours will already be gone
You and me specs among the masses
With what words will they make our song

Were we two people a bit different from the rest
I think that I already know
Two romantics sitting on the moons crest
Side by side already years ago

Who can predict a storm?
Twirling thoughts and emotions astray?
Moments of tenderness so warm
Even if only for a day

And the plans and appointments
Made and left to the sky
Words spoken and sentiments
Destined to never die.

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In Life
Nella Vita

Nella vita aspettiamo tutti per qualcuno. Qualche volta siamo sicuri che sono arrivati. Poi ci troviamo a terra come un pagliaccio. Non ti faccio mai cadere. Ti appogero e mi appoggerai.

In life we’re all waiting for someone. At times we are sure that they’ve arrived. A bit later we often find ourselves spread out on the ground like a clown. I will not let you fall. I will support you and you me. Patrizio

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Your legs are tight and firm
Your eyes brown and soft
Your relationship’s without term
Tossed down from your loft

Searching out fun
On life's dead ends
Wanting no one
Just friends

Well you've found one

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Kev’

And I love u so
Your big red nose
I hope u know
In thrift store clothes

You are more real than a hundred wars
Downing your brew
With 2 dollar whores
And Hormel stew

You’ve seen God
Where others see hell
Old Calhoun squad
From your overnight jail cell

You love more
From the bottom of your can
Than most no what’s for
And more than they can stand

You never turn anyone away
More Christ like than the pope
And smile with each passing day
To your friends strung out on dope

I’ll never lose you
You’re mine to keep
Hidden from view
Thoughts blue and deep

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Life Cut Me with a Knife

If I only knew before
A lesson, a chore
Taught to an old fool
Going to nursery school

The learning material
Taught before the closing bell
Made me understand
Every grain of sand

Life-----life
Cut me with a knife
And the blood drops fall
You wont be back at all

You who taught me how
And where are you now
That I'm falling
As I hear you calling

You offered me a cafe'
Were the sun in Sunday
Your smile lit up my road
Your help lightened the load

And where are you now
Tattered soul broken vow
Together we took the fall
And now you won't be back at all

We fell to new height
In the dark of the night
Love our screaming call
You wont be back at all

Maybe someday near
When you're tired dear
You can love me with your call
And I'll take the final fall

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Love

Love, the feeling that surrounds your life
Greets you in the morning and tucks you in at night.
You imagine it within your sight
Foolishly hope and pray that the time is right

Spotting her you shiver, fear then you stutter
If you see her qualities so does another
What makes her want you? you will fall.
And is it true that she knows what she wants at all?

Many a brave man have jumped, not fled
Mostly to be wounded and left for dead
Maybe you could win
If only you knew where to begin

It always seems to end the same
Everyone brags but in the end lose the game
You find them despondent lost and bitter
All alone face up to the sky left to whither

Is it really as it seems, is someone keeping score
Screaming and gnashing your teeth till you can't scream anymore
Is there an alternative less painful that you can suggest
I'm pretty resourceful and believe it or not, have given my best

What is it really all about
And when will it all come out
Where I ask will it end
Maybe it’s better if you'll just be my friend

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Mild

People pass you on the street
They're ignorant and changed
You've got a new strength at your feet
Your life's been rearranged

And you'd like to sock em
Tell em what it's all about
And you'd like to rock them
Go up into their face and shout

And they cry about their cold
Doesn't seem so crass calous or mean
To mock their fears of growing old
And their worries obscene

Cause you've tasted the pain of a child
And all of their trials seem so mild

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Moments

Ci sono momenti della vita e penso che tu lo sai.
Cose che capitono che non hai pensato mai
ma sappiamo che possono farti male.

There are things that happen in our life
I think that you know
Things that cause great hardship and strife
and if you don't, I'll tell you so

Have you ever sat in the chair
Your face against a wall
Words of great despair
And there's little you can do at all.

You have a child
The air that you breathe
Now has a sickness
That's never going to leave.

Or if it does
They'll let you know
Will take him with
When it decides to go

Your life crashes
Tormenting your head
The light thrashes
Maybe you'd be better off dead

Thoughts fill your mind
Never thought before
And any words, consoling or kind
Have you desperately searching for the door

Then he reaches you his hand
It's he that gives you courage
For a moment your ship sees land
It's wasted time to be discouraged

What's next you ask your self
As you look up to the sky
Slowly you understand
That it's useless to ask why

You talk to your priest
Or your rabbi or your shrink
who can do little
No mater what you think

You've hit a wall
At 200 an hour
Your body lives
Your life’s been devoured

You’re tempted
By the sea
To take your little child with you
To a place you'll both be free

And the waves tantalize you
As your leg enters the water
You’re numb to all
Even the tears of your daughter

Then for some reason
With tears in your eyes
You turn around
And to your surprise

There's faith,
And there's hope
You've made it back from the mountain
Heading down the slope

And he's there too.

Your life’s changed,
It's gained a new meaning and form
There exist no more of man's silly rules
You've got your own norm

And you live on in a different way
Rumors that you've been a little off since the day

And people pass you in the street…

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Mysterious

A smile that fills a hundred years
Free but never freeing
Misty eyes that betray a thousand tears
Hiding from the all seeing

Yielding to your soul
Waiting in the fire
Your solice, hot coal
Your hope, desire

Passing in the night
An owl with silent wings
Flying into daylight
As the robin sings

Out of place
Locked in your mind
A tantalyzing trace
Of a real soul find

Cause you've always known
That the end is near
And words in the wind blown
Whispering rumors of your fear

And it's happiness
That brings you pain
As emptiness
The mundane

But the owl looks as it passes
Tired of flying in daylight
Ignoring the beckoning of the masses
To join in their fright

And at destination
You may finally rest
As the owl swallows its consolation
Served on a robins breast

As day interupts the feast
To end all sobbin
There is no deceased
Only the owl dancing with the robin

There was no pain
It was only me
Searching in the rain
For my final destiny

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My Soul is Drifting

Simple White Pearl

I knew the little girl
Smiling and sincere
A simple white pearl
Far, yet ever so near

A courageous shy thing
Boxed and left to linger
Inside a diamond ring
To sit on no ones finger

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Summer Breeze

Our relationship is like
The summer breeze
That brings cool
From restless trees

It's a dream to capture it
To bottle in a jar
To let out at will
And send life afar

But it's not possible
It can't be done
Dream and dream
Capture the rays of the sun

Another time.
In another place
We'll be ours

Another life
Without a trace
Ducking watch towers

Go hide from the rain
That will fall
From your all

Go hide from the snow and the cold
In your fantasy
Of fairytales and knights bold.

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The Beginning the End